She Will Definitely Let You Know The Unreason Why
How may times do I have to try to tell you that I’m sorry for the things I’ve done?
Part of the challenge of dealing with Regret Space is its vastness.
Defeat and Retreat tend to demarcate along specific events and insights. Like telling the doc not to let Semoira know I was lying on a bed in the hospital where she was working. Like tracing her and Ginevra King’s bloodlines back to the same ancestors, and their namesakes back to the first Da Vinci Girl.
I remember those things like yesterday.
Regret Space is different. It overlaps with the other spaces and you can find yourself back in it even after you think you’ve left for good. I dealt with my Regret Space from Retreat right up into Resonate.
It’s kind of like breaking up with a woman. She decides when it’s over. And when it’s over she will definitely let you know.
For me, it came about a month ago— after my January 2.0—in the middle of the night as I was, once again, lying on a hospital bed.
After all that space and time. Just goes to show you how huge this thing is.
But I knew. Did I ever know. And I knew it was over because I now knew the reason why.